back to life, back to reality

so just 2 days ago my roommate jenny picked me up and we began the trek back to portland, back to “normal life” (since the accident i’ve redefined normal).  first we had to stop by the pharmacy so i could pick up 91 vicodin, no really, exactly 91 to get me through the next two weeks.  see why i redefined “normal”?

the drive back was smooth–it was late–so we just listened to music and caught up.  it was good because since the accident i don’t really remember the two weeks i spent in portland after i had gotten back from radio city. 

when i got home i walked into my room and immediately felt like i had won the lottery!  i have so many clothes.   i don’t mean that haughtily, just that after living in dance wear october-january, basically out of a suitcase in a hotel room and then two months of rotating between the 3-4 outfits i had with me–to see all my stuff out of storage–it was so nice!

so the past two days i’ve been just getting unpacked and organizing everything.  mandy, you’d be really proud of me.  in the acting industry so far i’ve been gifted with lots of goody bags of travel size luxury products, so seriously, i never need convenient travel sized lotions and potions again, or at least for the next ten years.  i have so many fancy shmancy eye creams i filled up a little bag of them, now it’s just getting myself to actually use them.  i also was gifted with 4 nanette lepore perfumes (my favorite, how did they know?)  finally i sorted through the hundred cards and five gift baskets i’d been given while recovering and my closet is finally pristine and organized.  this will last all of 30.2 seconds so indulge me with just a little gloating.

today was fun because it was a total surprise that zachary and his mom came by–he had a doctor’s appointment in the area so it was so good to see him.  i thought i wasn’t going to see them until i made the trek to hillsboro this weekend. 

i am daily reminded that god is faithful even in the little things.  i’m so scared of being lonely here, of not finding a job soon, of truly owing the hospital $20,000 if my lawyer can’t negotiate something–but i know, i have to trust, that god has gone before me and is preparing the way.

oh, i put in my application to nordstrom’s to work at the mac cosmetics counter.  i can already hear the gasps of “oh so shallow” but it is a job that will let me be flexible for auditions if needed.

love you all.