so the “news” that i have been mulling over has been a whirlwind couple weeks. tapes and phone calls and two weeks later, the principal film role i was in the top 2 for has been dropped. the casting director said it was “too risky to have of of the main parts be a little person in a non-stereotypical role” and they were “going in a different direction and dropping this character entirely”. it just irritates me because the entire point of the show i am on regularly (via my best family friends) is to show that little people are normal and it has extremely high ratings. we don’t live in castles! i guess our society hasn’t come far enough yet–african-americans and gays are mainstream but i’m not invited to the party yet.
we don’t have enough power to lobby against this–we don’t have an naacp or anything. she flat out told me america is not ready to see a little person in a principal role in mainstream society. that maddens me!
it continues to fire my passion to fight so that one day my daughter can continue to see people that look like her on television in non-degrading roles. another ‘no’ gives me more ammunition to keep striving, propelling forward. mark my words, i will not dance around on mtv as a miniature pop-starlet, i will not give up artistry for the sake of shallow entertainment, i will not portray myself in a way that perpetuates another stereotype.
now many of you will find my role in radio city a contradiction to this. i have to admit that i had a preconceived negative opinion about radio city while i was in high school and college. the head people would come to convention and recruit little people for the show and i would always turn up my nose at it. i pursued higher education, for that i am very thankful, and ignored the whole scene despite the fact that i knew i would enjoy radio city as well. (i began acting and speaking professionally when i was 4.) anyways, i admit it, in this case i was a snob. there is more to radio city than being a cheerful christmas elf. the reason that radio city is distinguished in my mind is because everyone in the cast wears crazy, colorful costumes!! little people are not the only ones on stage making a fool of ourselves! we are treated just as kindly as everyone else. another reason that radio city is targeted to being a family friendly show…every aspect of the show is geared towards children. so yes, there are elves, christmas toys, santa, mrs. claus and of course, who could forget, the radio city rockettes!!!
i hope that as a person of faith i can continue to seek after this–justice and openness and throwing open the doors for all people, even in the entertainment industry. god is bigger and his vision is wider.