See, I am doing a new thing! -Isaiah 43:19
Truthfully, the WOF conference came at the most inconvenient time for me this year. It was the weekend before the weeklong Little People of America Conference, the same weekend as a dear friend’s wedding and the same weekend in which I was bloody, bloody sick.
Anyways, back to starting a new thing. I took my little arena seat in the front row and felt heavy that night. It was not as if I expected to have or did have a come-to-Jesus-moment because my life has never worked that way. But in the quietness of my heart and through the words of each speaker, my hope was being renewed, little seed by seed.
My discouragement was summed up in one sentence by that casting director.
-The world is not ready for a LP heroine.
Her words had ricocheted around my mind for over a week until, sitting in that seat, I heard a small voice say,
–The world might not be ready yet, but the kingdom IS.
God’s doing a new thing in me. God’s won’t stop doing new things until I die and I think when that happens I’ll turn into the newest, completed, whollest possible version of me. I must keep fighting, working, creating to pave the way. I am not finished because I am alive.
The next series of blogs, intermittently broken up by something broadwayesque i’m sure, will be little ebenezers. Messages to myself, and to you, things i jotted down in the notebook i carry around with me that i’ve fondly begun calling “blog starters”.